Blessed and humbled

Our fundraiser is over!!! What a weight lifted off our shoulders. I left church tonight feeling humbled and so blessed. We had so many family and friends come out to support us. I am pretty sure the number was around 200 people. The food was great, the carnival was crazy, and God was present. It was just another confirmation that we are exactly where God wants us. It brought me back to the thoughts and doubts I had when we were first deciding to adopt. This is what I wrote in an older post,

"Although I had a naughty child last night, much of my night was spent stressing over our decision for adoption. All night long the devil was working on my thought process. My thoughts ranged from "Why do I would I want to risk my "happy life"?, What if this affects my three beautiful girls negatively?, What if we adopt this child and God takes him/her home early?, What do I do with a boy? What if it is hard and Jason regrets adopting?, What do I do if I struggle to bond with this child?, Will this child be accepted into an all white community?, Will we not be approved because of our finances?, Why us?, Will he/she ever feel apart of our family? and so on and so on. Now you can see why I was not sleeping well last night. During all of this anxiety I prayed and asked God to reveal his plan for us. What is HIS will for us in this adoption process."

I know God's will. He pretty much took my doubts and threw them out the window. Tonight, because of the generosity and love of family and friends we raised almost $10,000. OH MY WORD!!!!!!!! I did say $10,000. This is almost 1/2 of the amount of money it takes to adopt internationally. I never in my wildest dreams imagined this. I came home and spent time thanking God and just meditating on the fact that HE IS FAITHFUL!! God asked us to trust, follow, and obey. We did this, and look how He has answered. Thank you to all who have offered your help with money, prayers, and encouragement. The only way I can think of thanking you is to pass this blessing on to our son, and someday to another family who may be adopting. Our road is still long, but to know that we have amazing family and friends by our side is such a blessing. Our "little man" has no idea how much he is loved.